You might of noticed I haven't posted a weight loss update for a few weeks. I've lost motivation and I've not done great. I've been thinking very long and hard about my decision. I have decided to stop going to my Slimming World group/class. It was a big decision for me. It doesn't sound like one, but anything to do with my weight is a big problem for me. I hate how I look but I don't have that determination/motivation to stick to plan 100%. The past few weeks I feel like I have been going to group to please other people and it hasn't been helping me at all. So I have now decided to do Slimming World and healthy eating at home. I have decided to move my weigh in days to Saturday Mornings.
My usual weigh day with Slimming World is Wednesday 7pm which is very awkward for me. As it is an evening class, I will usually have a light breakfast and dinner with one glass of drink with a cup of tea in the morning. From 1pm onwards, I will have nothing. I don't come back home until 8.30 - 8.50pm after group so I will just eat anything that my partner cooks and whatever is there, with a chocolate to follow! (of course).
You can maybe turn around and think that I didn't want it enough, or I would of stuck to it and carried on going to group but if I am honest, life does get in the way. There are events and holidays and the last thing you think about it healthy food, right? I have been going to Slimming World for just over 2 years and I am getting bored of it (very bored). I was getting obsessive. Looking at foods, going moody with other people and I did work myself up too much. I need to learn self control. That is what I will learn myself, no one else can help me with that. Another positive of leaving group is I will be saving £4.95 a week! Although I will miss everyone at group, so much.
Since I decided to do it from home I have been very determined. I have stuck to the plan. I have already lost some weight but I won't tell anyone until I weigh Saturday morning and see what the scales say then. I feel like something has lifted off my shoulders. I know I can be on plan 100% Monday to Friday so a weigh in on a Saturday is much better for me.
I have gained just over a stone since I've come back from Thailand. I am determined to loose 2 stone by my birthday in August. It can be done, it's just me who has to do it. I am fed up of looking at myself in the mirror and hating my body and shape. I am fed up looking for things to wear and always end up crying because either I have nothing or the clothes don't fit me or don't look right on me. My confidence is really low when I go outside. I always think people are going to judge me for what I wear, maybe my top is too tight? Maybe you can see my big hips or my legs are too big for your liking? I get too paranoid. I used to be the girl who didn't care. I used to just wear shorts or a skirt with a vest top and I was confident. Now, I never show my arms when I am out and I never show my legs.
I have also started walking. Even though I walk 3 times a day to take my girls to school, and back home I want to try and walk a bit more. My Dad has been trying to get me to join an app he uses for a while. I have given in and started using it. It shocked me that I do over 3 miles a day by just doing school runs! I did a 3 mile power walk this morning before getting Elliw from playgroup and I already did a mile walk for taking the girls too school.
So, this time it's for real. I am really looking forward to getting my confidence back and doing it myself this time.
Although I started Slimming world weighing 17 stone 3 lbs. I will be starting my new journey with what I weighed on Monday 1st of June 2015.
Start Weight - 15 stone 5 1/4 lbs.
Hips - 48.2"
Thighs - 28.1"
Leg - 24.2"
Calf - 17"
Waist - 36"
Arm - 12.7"
I will update my measurements every few weeks. My weight I will update weekly.
My next weight loss update will be Saturday 6th June 2015.
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