Watching You Grow... Elliw
Friday, 30 October 2015
My littlest little girl. My little terror. My darling daughter. Watching Elliw grow in the past few months have shocked me. It's shocked me because she really is growing up to be a child. Her speech is coming along fantastically well - which means she is talking a lot more. We are having proper little conversations now, which feels weird. Another thing I am noticing with Elliw is that she is eager to learn how to write and draw. She has always been behind in her development so to hear her asking me to write words down for her to go over, just feels a bit odd.
Elliw really is a Mammy's girl. She doesn't let me go most of the day, unless she is at school. She constantly wants me in the same room as her all day, ever day. She will cling on to me and hardly ever will she go sit on that other sofa opposite me if I am in the same room. She will need to sit next to me, right next to me. Although it can annoy the hell out of me - I try my best not to get annoyed as much anymore because I know one day I will miss it. But at this time - it is really annoying and stressful.
I am not going to lie, Elliw is really hard work. With all her screaming, demands, clinginess, tempers (throwing herself on the floor), no sense of danger and constant on the go but that is what makes her Elliw. That is my little girl. I am not used to the clinginess and constant demands through out the day because Mia is totally different but Elliw wouldn't be Elliw if she didn't have her antics all day. Every day when I go to toilet, I open the door and there she is sitting on the top step of the stairs waiting for me. Every day when she constantly asks for food between meals and snacks, every day when she screams 'mam' over and over again, every day where she is stuck by my side and every day she does not stop jabbering and chattering. Those days will come to an end eventually and I will miss it. I don't see how I will miss any of the clinginess, screaming and tempers but I know I will eventually. One day she will stop wanting cuddles with me. One day she will stop following me and sitting on top of the stairs waiting for me. One day she will stop following me - and I will miss it.
Watching Elliw grow really does make me sad some days. She may be my last baby - which makes me a little bit more sadder. But watching her develop ever so quickly in the past few months and even weeks has amazed me. She is growing to be such a funny, clever and loving little girl. Although her tempers can tell another story - as i said, Elliw wouldn't be Elliw if she didn't have those temper tantrums on a daily basis.
Elliw has so much energy it is un real. She can't sit still. Not nowhere. She can't have cuddles still, she will forever move. She wakes up 6am - 7am every single morning - 8am is a lie in which doesn't happen very often but how she has the energy through out the whole day I am not sure - not even Mia can keep up with her.
Watching Elliw grow has amazed me and making me think many things and seeing things differently. I won't be able to re-live any of these moments ever again. My little girl will be a teenager, then an adult and moved out. These things that annoy me now - I will miss them when she's gone. Time goes too fast.