My Last Baby


Ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted kids of my own. I always wanted that 'family life'. Growing up with a single Dad was amazing, don't get me wrong but I always longed for that Mother and Father kind of family. But life never plans out like you want it too, does it? But I believe everything happens for a reason.

When I fell pregnant at the age of 16 with my first, I knew I wasn't going to give my first daughter the family I always wanted. Many of times I sat on my bed and just spoke to her whilst I was pregnant, I didn't stop saying sorry and I never stopped saying sorry to her until I met my current partner nearly 5 years ago. I was a single mother for so long and I went through pregnancy and nearly the first year of parenting by myself but with the help of my Dad. Mia's Dad didn't come on the scene until roughly 5-6 months after she was born. You can read the story here.

When I met my current partner, I fell pregnant pretty quickly. I was on the pill and missed a couple of days. So I fell pregnant whilst on the pill. It was unplanned, unexpected and shocking. But we coped. I was petrified that my partner was going to leave me, but he didn't. He stuck by my side and he is still here to this day. He was my rock through my pregnancy with Elliw. He was amazing and still is.

I always knew I wanted another baby. Before having children I always wanted four. But after having Elliw, it changed my mind. I didn't want another child for a good while even though I was extremely broody at times, I just didn't want another. I wanted to wait until both girls were full time school and I could work my a*se off to make my blog my full income. However, things didn't go to plan *again*. I am now 23 weeks pregnant with my third baby.

I did fall pregnant sooner than I thought as I had planned to wait atleast another year or two until having baby number 3. However, thinking about everything and having a chat with my partner, I do think this baby is coming at the right time. Baby is our last. I don't want anymore and my partner doesn't want anymore. It was such a hard decision for me but I am looking towards the future and I know I am making the right decision.

From my view and how my life has been so far, I have been a mother since the age of 17 (just turned). I never had that life with my friends, never had that teenage life, never had that life all my other friends have had. My life has been around my children and I would never ever change that. When Baby #3 turns 18 me and my partner will be only be 42 years old. Which I think is the perfect age to have grown up kids.

Me and my partner have thought about so much about what we are going to do and planning in the future. We are so excited. We are planning to travel a bit, go to Thailand a good few times a year the same as my partners parents. We are also looking at buying a camper and going travelling in that too. My partner will be taking over his Dad's business in a few years time so he will be his own boss and I will be working full time and have a career somewhere. There is so much more we are planning to do.

Although it is so sad that this will be the last time ever for me to carry a baby, grow a baby, feel a baby inside of me kick and move. There will be times in my life that I might want more and you never know maybe my partner will too and our whole life plan will have changed again. But highly doubt that will ever happen. We have our two beautiful girls and our little boy who will soon be here in a few months time. We couldn't of asked for a better life right now. We are just going to enjoy it and watch them all grow up and make some amazing memories.

Have you made a decision of not having anymore babies?

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  1. At 33 I still haven't had my first and am pretty desperate to have a baby on my life and so is my partner so I'm hoping I am blessed soon!

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  2. At 25 I only have my son Blake at current I do want one more but definitely no more after that.

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  3. I would love to have another (to make it three) but just not happening at the moment. fingers crossed!

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  4. Every once in a while it crosses my mind or my wife gives me a look when we see a baby. I went ahead and made sure these temptations never caused me to give in

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  5. I've always wanted a big family but after 2 pretty horrific births, I'm not sure if I can do it again. I'd like to but still unsure. I think that's amazing that you'll be 42 when your child is 18. I always wanted to be a young mum. I'm nearly 31 and I know that's not old but I wanted to be younger x

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  6. Great read and thanks for sharing! I am 28 and i don't have any children yet. I do feel that lately I have the need more to start a family. I think that it is pretty amazing that you'll be 42 when your child is 18. There is then so much that you and your partner can still so without having to worry to much to your children being back home. xx

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  7. I have two and wouldn't say never to more but at the moment we are just happy and contented with the two xx

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  8. Ahh I think you've got it just right. You've done things the opposite way round to me, I'll be 55 when my youngest is 18 - well old! So that's cool you are young parents, and you still got loads of adventures to look forward to :-) Xx

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    1. Please read http://mylastbaby.com she a mother of six boys and would love to share her story with you

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    2. Please read http://mylastbaby.com she a mother of six boys and would love to share her story with you

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  9. It sounds like you've got a really great idea about where you want your lives to go! You have so much to look forward to! xx

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  10. I didn't have my first until I was 30 and my second when I was 32. I'm not sure if I'm done, ian wants to have another but I'm so torn as im really enjoying the time with my youngest x

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  11. I always think things happen when they are least expected. I planned to have a large family and got pregnant at 29. I was shcoked that the next three pregnancies didn't come to full term and ended in miscarriage. Now at almost 36 I have just the one beautiful boy and feel a little sad that he is an only child but wouldn't swap our little gang for the world. x

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