Ever feel your world is crashing down on you? Feel like you're so alone, you don't know what to do with yourself anymore? You feel like the whole world is against you? Sturggle to get yourself out of bed in the morning because you're worried how your day is going to be? Scared incase you're going to burst into tears again, out of nowhere?
The worst of it? Having to pretend in front of my two beautiful innocent little girls that everything is ok. When it's not.
Trying to hold back those tears that are slowly forcing themselves out of my eyes. I just want to sit somewhere, think everything over and let everything out. I feel like I want to scream just to let all my feelings out of me. I hate feeling this way.
They say your children can make everything better. Yes they can but you can't forget everything that has happened, all of a sudden. You have to pretend that everything is ok. So they don't see you upset, and so nothing affects them.
I guess it's life. But things do get better, right?