Never Ending

The past few weeks have been quite a challenge for me. My personal life has been very difficult. But I have also been extremely busy with my Blog. So juggling my family life and my blog work has been pretty difficult. I have fallen behind on things but I am greatfull with what has happened, it hasn't taken me back down that dark place again.

I'm not going to talk about what has exactly happened in my personal life. The other challenging thing recently is motherhood. The days feel much longer and the nights are just too short. I will admit, I love my morning breaks when both girls are in school. No one said Motherhood would be easy and I know it's not. It always has it's ups and downs but at the end of the day it is worth it.

I feel so exhausted most days. Elliw has a habit now of repeating what she says constantly until she gets an answer. But even if I do reply, she will still repeat herself until she gets the answer she wants. Mia does it sometimes but not as often. They love playing together. They love playing school and pretending they are Mum and Baby but my god, it doesn't last! There is always an argument. I always have to either take toys away because they're fighting over it or I have to separate them. Mia can be very bossy so I am trying my best to work on that. Elliw can also be very demanding, she will do things Mia doesn't want so there we go, another argument.

Elliw has always been the one who screams. She screams and shouts at most things, even when she talks. If we give her the answer she doesn't want then she will happily throw herself on the floor, kick and scream. Sometimes she can throw a tantrum out of nowhere.

Mia has chronic constipation. She has had it since she was 2 years old. She could go through 10 or more knickers a day. Constantly having to clean and change her. It was never ending. She is getting much better now though since we are with the constipation clinic. I feel the past few months, when Mia has been brilliant and had clean knickers for a full week or so, Elliw starts having accidents. It's like I am not supposed to be not cleaning bums and throwing knickers! It can put me down. I feel like I am doing something wrong.

I think I am going to have to speak to a Health Visitor or someone about Elliw's behaviour. I don't see that it is just because of her delayed speech. Even though I have mentioned that before to them but they don't seem to take any notice.

Do you have a child who has very bad tantrums that you feel you can't control?


  1. Sending love and hugs! It sounds like you are having a rubbish time at the moment!
    Yep! I have a 7 year old who has behavior problems which include tantrums....We've actually just been referred to someone through the school nurse....We're on the waiting list which is about 6 months long. Ugh!

  2. My son (19months) has some beautifully coordinated tantrums. I think he is frustrated as he has no speech. I don't try and control them I just let them play out so far.

  3. Oh, lovely, it sounds like you're having a really tough time at the moment. Definitely try and speak to your Health Visitor, even if just ends up being a friendly and understanding ear. Sending hugs x

  4. Oh dear, I do feel for you. It sounds like you have several challenges piled on top of each other. Those tantrums are tricky, my 8 year old still throws them quite regularly and they are hideous. I sometimes find it helps to just stop and give her a hug but it takes control. I think it'sa good idea to speak to the health visitor but also be kind to yourself and take any offers of help (or is there someone you can ask?). Do take care and I hope things improve soon x

  5. I can so sympathise with you, in particular the continence issues and constantly needing to change knickers. It is draining and at times can be hard to see a light at the end of the tunnel. Trust your gut in everything and make sure your do speak to your Health Visitor until they listen to you and take you seriously. You are doing a great job, go gently. Mel xx


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