It Won't Last Forever {The Ordinary Moments}

My Freddie has been here for a month tomorrow and I have loved every single minute of it. I am trying my best to enjoy every single minute and take in every minute and everything that he does because he is my last baby and I will never be experiencing any of his 'firsts' again. It does make me sad that he is my last baby but he is just that extra special because he is my last. I am not going to lie, the last 4 weeks have been tiring, well, exhausting but also amazing.


As I am writing this post my little boy is sleeping on me on my nursing pillow after just finishing his feed {for the 100th time}. I feel like Freddie is constantly on me feeding, all day and night. I know it will pass one day though. When I start getting upset or a little bit frustrated that I just can't do my own thing anymore unless I stay up late after midnight {which I can't do!} I just start to think 'this won't last forever', he is my last baby so why am I complaining? Well, I think I have the right to go on and on saying I am shattered and so on but honestly, I won't be going through this again. Freddie is going to grow up fast, just like the girls. I think the more kids you have the more you realise you need to take more interest in what they do and so on because we know how fast they grow up.

Although I am exhausted, never get time to myself anymore and I have a baby stuck on me constantly through the day, I have loved every day since he was born. It's hard but as I said above, it won't last forever. I am not putting a 'perfect picture' up on here because the past four weeks have been difficult trying to juggle a newborn baby feeding constantly and looking after a 4 and 6 year old who are currently on their school summer holidays. Some days I won't have lunch, some days I won't have my dinner until past 9pm {or none at all} and 99% of the time, Freddie is feeding whilst I am eating my food too.

Freddie did his first smile a few days ago and it was just amazing. Waking up to my little boy every single morning, looking at his big blue eyes wondering everywhere is just the best feeling in the world. Knowing he is healthy and happy and he has two loving big sisters who just adore him so much makes me so happy. He really has completed our family and even though I am sad that I will never be pregnant again or go through having a newborn baby again, this little one, Freddie, is worth every pain, tear, upset and tiredness because I just know, this won't last forever.