Dear Freddie,

  It's been nearly two weeks now since you had your last feed and it feels so strange. You just weaned yourself off, but I kind of knew you were going to stop soon but not now. Breastfeeding has been one of the most amazing experiences I've had, and it's all down to you. The first six months were the best, I was in that little 'newborn' bubble for a little too long, but you're my last baby and my first baby boy. The moment I found out I was pregnant with you, I knew I wanted to breastfeed, and I was fortunate that you latched on straight away, even though you have tongue-tie. We were the first to leave the hospital as we passed the breastfeeding assessment first time and they were happy for us to leave.

I must admit, at times it was tough. Really tough. I slowly started to dislike breastfeeding as I felt I was going a little crazy. You were such a rubbish sleeper and continuously wanting feeding. I was struggling with separation anxiety, and so were you. We never spent much time apart, but when we slowly did start spending time apart from each other, things started to calm down. I was slowly feeling better in myself, and it was lovely seeing you being other people (although I still got jealous at times).

In a lot of ways, breastfeeding has changed me as a person and a mother. It definitely made me feel more attached, and the bond was a whole new, different thing - it was special. It changed me to be more patient (sometimes) and just taking a step back and take everything in. Because at the end of the day, you're soon going to be an adult and the years are just going to fly by.

Words can't even explain how lucky I feel to have had the chance to breastfeed. Our special cuddles, the moments you put your soft little hands on my chest and those big blue eyes staring up at me, were just priceless and precious moments. Moments I'm so glad I put down the washing basket, forgot the hoover, ignored my phone and just fed you.

14 and a half months of our amazing journey has come to an end.

I will miss it, but I am so thankful.

You're such an amazing little boy, Freddie.

All my love,
Mama xxx

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  1. This is a gorgeous letter to your little boy. I loved breastfeeding my youngest and do miss it sometimes but we were both ready to stop. Lovely pix too x #kcacols

  2. aw well done - 14 months is amazing! i struggled to breastfeed and gave up in the end. id like to try again if i had another though. Thanks so much for linking up at #KCACOLS. Hope you come back again next time.

  3. This was so lovely to read. Jacob is 14 months now and we've gone down to one feed per day. Just before bed. It's so cute, but I think it's coming to an end soon. #KCACOLS

  4. Lovely. My son weaned himself too. #kcacols

  5. Wonderful post and what lovely memories to treasure. Every step of breastfeeding is an emotional journey from pain and relentless feeding at the beginning, to being hopelessly tied to them as only mummy will do and then when they wean. But it is all so beautiful at the same time. x #kcacols

  6. Such a lovely letter, wonderful memories for both of you x #KCACOLS

  7. This made me cry at my desk at work!
    I'm still feeding my 9mo old son (morning and night) but I'm not sure for how much longer; he's not that into it anymore now he eats a wide variety of food. I fed my daughter til she was one, but I don't think he'll want it that long.
    I was devastated when she stopped. I have a feeling I'll take it hard when he does too.
    Cherish these first few months. They are like nothing else x


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