The end of Life as Mum?

For a good few months now I have been sitting down in the evenings or when Freddie is napping during the day, starting at my laptop with my blog on the screen, asking the same question each time. "Will I ever stop blogging?" It is something I think about a lot because if I'm being totally honest, I can't see my life with no blog. I can't see my life without having a 'blogging mind'. Whether it's making sure I take the right photos, editing photos during the evenings or when I get time, e-mails on a daily basis from brands/PRs, constantly looking at my stats and most of all, my lovely blogging friends.

To many people, blogging is a complete 'joke'. Somealot of people don't fully understand what this blogging world is about. Many think it's attention seeking, others think it's pointless and others, well, they follow and read blogs. The readers that help grow our blogs and I'm forever grateful for every single person who has read a blog post or followed me on any social media in the past nearly five years.

This blog, my little space on the internet, started to just jot down some memories that I had with the girls and my partner. It's crazy to think that I started this blog before my little boy, Freddie was even born. I am so pleased that I have written a weekly pregnancy update through my third pregnancy. I wrote everything down, from how I felt, the scans and my weekly hospital appointments. Even now, I will look back and read the posts. It makes me so happy that I have those there to read over, something I don't have from my first and second pregnancies.

My blog has brought me so many opportunities. Something I thought would never happen. When I first started blogging, I knew you could review products and such but being able to work with brands, brands that I absolutely adore such as Cosatto, Asda George, AO.com, Johnsons and so much more, it just makes me feel proud of myself at how far I have come. I don't see myself as a 'big blogger' or a 'successful blogger' as there are so many other huge amazing bloggers around. But I am proud of myself that I am a self-employed blogger. Brands find me, and they want to work with me - that does make me happy and makes me feel that I'm doing something right.

If it weren't for my blog, my partner and I wouldn't have so many memories with the kids like we have. Having the great opportunity to visit Bluestone a few times, going out for meals, visiting a few National Trust properties and much more. The memories are all written down on this blog or filmed on my channel, and I'm so glad I've managed to capture so many photos and also write about them too.

Taking photos is my favourite thing to do. I am the person who always has a camera nearby. Everywhere we go, I always grab the chance to take as many photos as I can. On an average day out, I'll capture over 100 images, near 200 or more to be exact. It's my blog that has helped me learn more about photography and editing. It's pushed me to concentrate more on taking photos, and now I have those photos to look back on in years to come, which makes me super happy.

Saying all that above, I don't think I'd be here, blogging, today if it wasn't for some amazing blogging friends. I have met some in person at a blogging conference, and I am just so grateful for all the help and support I've had from some amazing friends that I've made through blogging. They are Tanita from JustMotherhood, Helen from Treasure Every Moment, Emma from Sophie Ella and Me, Leanne from A Slice of my life Wales, Abi from Lilypad and Bow and a few more. They're always so kind with their words, all beautiful inside and out, as well as being super supportive.

Blogging can be a very lonely world at times. Especially when you start comparing yourself to others, and that's when you can start to feel a little lost. You start to judge yourself in your writing, photos and just your whole blog in general. Many of times I have felt like that recently. I feel like my photos and content, especially my social media, just isn't good, and nobody reads or visits. It's made me cry a few times, I wonder why I work so many hours on my blog, writing my own content, social media work and writing for brands.

Somedays I just want to switch it all off and just forget about it all.

Somedays I just want to go 'out' to work instead of working from home.

But then I wouldn't have all the memories, I wouldn't have the wonderful messages I receive from some readers, I wouldn't have met some of the most wonderful friends, I wouldn't have the support from some amazing bloggers and I wouldn't be in a world where I can just 'feel myself'. Blogging has always been my little getaway from Motherhood. Which is quite funny as I mostly write about Motherhood. But things have changed a lot recently. I am writing more towards things that I like, things that I want to write about such as clothes interests, my photos and some family related content.

I've also stepped out of my comfort zone and decided to upload three times a week on my YouTube channel, and that's been one of the best decisions I have made. I'm even being recognised by some brands which amaze me because my channel is still small. I am receiving so much support with my new journey, and I am SO excited to see where it takes me.

But to answer the title of this post... Life as Mum is not coming to an end. It's just a start of something new, and I'm super excited.

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A little note: I just wrote this post as things came to my head. I understand it's a bit mixed up, but it's how I felt at the time and needed to get it out!